Wednesday, October 1, 2014

IWSG: The Balancing Battle of the Mind.

This post is for the Insecure Writers Support Group. (I accidentally posted this late, which makes me feel even more insecure.) 

One thing that causes a good deal of insecurities is that I always feel I am doing a balancing act where nothing gets the full attention it needs. I’m divorced and work full time, so weekends are crammed with things that have to get done. It’s harder to get the time when my daughter is in school. Then when I feel like I’m covering everything, I also feel like a workaholic.

Thoughts that go through my mind when writing:

When are you going to do something fun?
You don’t socialize enough.
You’re not helping your daughter with school enough.
Laundry is building up. You know how you hate to put it away on Sunday.
When was the last time you dusted?
The basement is a mess.
You need more exercise.
You should be studying something that actually makes money.

Thoughts that go through my mind when not writing:

You should be writing.
You’re wasting time just sitting there. Get moving!
When are you going to write a blog post?
Stop looking at stock images. You have to finish the book first.
You’ve just wasted an hour doing nothing.
Stop playing Candy Crush.
Get off Facebook.
Finishing a novel every 2 years is not acceptable! You need to go faster.

Even now I’m trying to come up with a good conclusion to this, but not sure what else I can say. I see no end to this loop. 

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Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

Holy cow! What a random comment.
Just switch the brain off when you're writing. Dust can be ignore. (Unless it gets on my guitar collection.) But I do know the battle. I guess we can't win either way.
Welcome back to the IWSG!

Pat Dilloway said...

A lot of times I think I should write and when I do I want to do other stuff.

Michael Offutt, Phantom Reader said...

I think anyone that writes has these kinds of voices in their head. I know I do. Take courage, Cindy. You are not so different from all of us, and what in life is important if it isn't the pursuit of happiness?